For the past couple of days, I’ve really been thinking about life and what I can do to change some of it to better deal with the rut I’m in. I mean…if I’m going to be in a rut, I should atleast know how to control it, know how to improve the situation. I think change…of any shape or form…is a really good idea. Maybe I just need change, change in enviornment, a change in my goals, a change in my thought process, a change in people, pace of life….a change of atmosphere….most importantly a change in routine.
So I’ve been looking up jobs, and applying farther away from where I live right now. And IF inshallah, everything goes the way I’ve thought of it in my head, then I will inshallah move out of this house in the next couple of weeks, and live away for a little bit. I think the change could be a good kind of struggle, a good challenge, to change up the terrible depression I’m in. It just has to work on some level. And even if it doesn’t work, I really have nothing to lose…at least I tried. Inshallah all will happen for the best.
Inshallah. Inshallah. Inshallah.