all i could say about how I feel right now is…warm and cozy. Not just physically wrapped up in a blanket, wearing my fuzzy socks and fleece pajamas, but in my heart too. Being surrounded by good friends, family, people that care about EACH OTHER. Its not even that I feel that they care about ME, or how they love me, but just that they care about each other, in their own individual way, and the show of love.. and spreading happiness. When ever I sit and observe people, I don’t connect myself in it, Its like I’m observing for a psych paper or something.. they’re not exactly interacting with me, but interacting with each other, and it somehow, someway, still affects me. Its just so weird… I don’t know how I would explain it to someone, very FEW people actually GETS me, lol…so I thought I would just write it down. :)
Im so stressed out with stuff its PHYSICALLY taking a toll on me. My eyes are dark and tired, my chin literally broke out and it hurts, my cheeks are about to break out too, I gained soooo many extra pounds and retained a lot of water weight so now I feel super gross…the list goes on. Alhumdulilah for everything, but this is a new level of stress, because I get more stressed every time I notice how visibly uglier I just got.
next time someone tells you Muslim countries oppress women, let them know Pakistan, Bangladesh, Indonesia, Turkey, Kosovo, Kyrgyzstan, and Senegal have all had female Presidents or Prime Ministers and 1/3rd of Egypt’s parliament is female but the US has yet to even have a female vice president and can’t say “vagina” when discussing female reproductive rights
“Maybe I was destined to forever fall in love with people I couldn’t have. Maybe there’s a whole assortment of impossible people waiting for me to find them. Waiting to make me feel the same impossibility over and over again.”— Carol Rifka Brunt, Tell the Wolves I’m Home (via anacampserrote)